Has your brain ever felt like it was swimming with 1000 things? Gah! I feel as though I am going insane. I've got a thousand things on my mind...a thousand things to get done...a thousand decisions to make...a thousand questions needing answers and well...none of it is going to happen today! I have so many changes happening and life seems all to hectic at the moment.
A great part of me feels like I am in a river. A river rushing with water overflowing it's banks, and I'm barely keeping my head above the water. I feel like I'm fighting for life and almost drowning (good thing I had swimming lessons when I was young). Then there's this part of me that is shinning - like the sun on an ever so bright summer day. Those days when the sun is blazing down on you, calling for you to head to the lake and hang out on the boat. Like there's this glimmer of happiness, excitement and hope for everything that's going on. Such newness in my life that makes the future look so enticing.
I see these choices, decisions and very prominent tasks I have, and they're all so great, but most have been sprung on me. Most I wasn't exactly planning on and well...now it's happening. Great! I can take that...but give me a bit of time to prepare for such choices!
Why can't I just be the part that's shinning? Why can't I just stay above water long enough to make it through the next few months? So frustrating...yet so thrilling to have such newness all about me, right?