Thursday, March 29, 2007

am i drowning or shinning?

Has your brain ever felt like it was swimming with 1000 things? Gah! I feel as though I am going insane. I've got a thousand things on my mind...a thousand things to get done...a thousand decisions to make...a thousand questions needing answers and well...none of it is going to happen today! I have so many changes happening and life seems all to hectic at the moment.

A great part of me feels like I am in a river. A river rushing with water overflowing it's banks, and I'm barely keeping my head above the water. I feel like I'm fighting for life and almost drowning (good thing I had swimming lessons when I was young). Then there's this part of me that is shinning - like the sun on an ever so bright summer day. Those days when the sun is blazing down on you, calling for you to head to the lake and hang out on the boat. Like there's this glimmer of happiness, excitement and hope for everything that's going on. Such newness in my life that makes the future look so enticing.

I see these choices, decisions and very prominent tasks I have, and they're all so great, but most have been sprung on me. Most I wasn't exactly planning on and well...now it's happening. Great! I can take that...but give me a bit of time to prepare for such choices!

Why can't I just be the part that's shinning? Why can't I just stay above water long enough to make it through the next few months? So frustrating...yet so thrilling to have such newness all about me, right?

8 comments:

Boswell said...

the lake...hmmmm...I really wish summer was here at this point...it needs to be swimming weather!

newness? what's newness?

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Lindsay said...

Why'd you remove a comment?? If ya gonna say it, SAY IT! ;)

Newness - the actual Websters definition would be: "new things/life around oneself" ;D hehe

I can't wait for the summer...and the lake. It's going to be brilliant!

Boswell said...

and I quote Lindsay..."yet so thrilling to have such newness all about me, right? " what does this mean? what's with the whole analogy?

Boswell said...

I said the same thing twice accidentally...figured you heard me ramble enough already and that you didn't want to hear me repeat myself...

Lindsay said...

Yes, this is true - heard the ramblings.

I think this post just baffled you completely.

It's about my life changing completely at the moment...everything is changing - thus the "newness"
:D

Boswell said...

and I quote Lindsay Brown, "A great part of me feels like I am in a river." river?! I knew you were talking about a river! and not all of it confused me, just most of it...lol...so are you like the st. lawrence or the nile river? I have no clue...don't ask...

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