Friday, October 19, 2007

The Fire Dies Low

It's so easy for the consistency to be absent. Very probable her flame will die low. The truth she tends to forgo. Her heart and mind never in complete agreement.
How hard she must work to keep the flame strong. To feed it the food it needs to stay alive, week to week. More and more she realizes just how far from strong she is, how she tends to be so weak.
The frustrations and afflictions always seem to be because of her failure to believe. Her trust is so limited. Her abilities and life far too much for her to believe. She can never understand all that lies ahead.
Her life held not in His hand, but grasp wrongfully in her own. The moments she hands it over, the limited and few, flourishing with life and always brand new. She's afraid of letting go, afraid of the unknown.
Working hard to fan the flame. Working to keep faith in her fire. Always a task, always a goal for which she must aim. Yet it still seems so much more than she'll ever acquire.
Her life not hers to have, she doesn't understand these circumstances. Never enough strength or will to carry on inside. Feeling she's placed it all up to very unlikely chances. But she doesn't know how much He's already thought to provide.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Grace

So I was just searching Google online for something and this showed up under my search:
Grace at TargetFind Grace Online. Shop & Save at Target.com Today.www.Target.com

Sometimes I wish I could just go online and purchase some grace from Target or any online store at that. Just an easy quick fix, right? But thankfully...grace is free. But there is a catch, it means we must humble ourselves to receive the grace...we must realize the mistakes we've made and decide to accept that grace. If only it was simple enough to stay at home, shop online in our pajamas and purchase that grace without anyone knowing. But when we receive the grace, it becomes evident to those around us. We can't stay the same person with that grace in our lives. We change...we become a person who shows grace to others as well. Once we have it and are full, we start to overflow...overflow to others. That's the ripple effect of grace. It can't just stay in one place. It goes out further and further. Grace is meant for all...but we can be selfish with it. We can hold it to ourselves, enjoying the peace we've found because of that grace. Or maybe we just take advantage of it. Maybe we just know it'll always be there and we no longer hold tight to it. Not letting it go. Then we start to put it on a shelf and come back to it when necessary. But that isn't how this grace works. This grace works out of passion, love and mostly sacrifice. This grace is for you once...once that should cover your life; mistakes and every direction you go. But you can give up the grace, you'll give it up if you aren't holding on to it. If you don't cherish every moment filled with that grace.

So why are you holding your grace and not letting others have some as well?