i'm done

i want out. i can't do this anymore...i can't take the false hope, faith and lies about the future. i don't see the good coming, i don't see the what my heart says might be there. i feel like i'm back at the same position i was so long ago...seemily worse off then it was. i've come to the point of desperation. i feel as though i can't believe anymore. it's the same thing it was...i believe in you and am greatly let down each time i do. i listen to the words said and the things done, then it all falls to pieces. my heart is a wreck, it can't go through this again. i can't understand what you say you'll do and don't, say you have but don't, say you want for me...but it never is. good and not bad, better and not worse...i feel worse, i see more bad and i can't understand even more. i'm not sure that i can trust and understand you like i thought i used to. i'm not sure i have the faith to believe, nor the faith to continue down this road. i want love and life, but i don't know if you give me that...i don't think you do