Wednesday, November 29, 2006

To Love The Life I Live

Lately I've questioned what people think and feel about me, what they truly think. I want people to love me for the God I love. When it comes down to it, I don't care how people think about me. I don't care what car I drive, I don't care about the clothes I wear, I don't care about the music I listen to, I don't care what words I use.

I care about God. I care about His plan for my life, I care about how much He loves me. What did He think of my day? How did He feel about the people I spent time with? Sure, I love nice clothes, hott cars, amazing music and quite definitely grand words. But I would throw all that away if keeping it meant giving up God.

Blogging, yes it is for you Mandy. I want God to open my eyes to see new things, to appreciate new things and better yet, old things. Things that have been around me I don't truly appreciate and cherish. For me to see my world in a different light.

I want to love the life I live. I want to live the life I live with great intentions. I want to follow after God. I want to wake up daily excited for what God has in store. I want God to unveil the things I have hid from my own eyes. Life is so grand, each day is new. Each day is a re-do to start over and fix what we've let go askew. Let's start today with a smile and know the direction it takes is a gift.

"So I let my words be few. Jesus I am so in love with you."

Thursday, November 2, 2006

Saying Goodbye

I stand here to say goodbye to you. I am watching you leave with him. You are so alone yet he stands right next to you. Life has turned upside down. Everything you once knew has now changed. All that you have felt and shared with him has been lost. Your love, your life, your comfort has been stolen from you. Stronger today than yesterday you must be. The guide and bearer of life you have now become. He smiles, yet we don't see the man that was. He's no longer the friend, the father, the lover and advisor, now he must be led. Steady you are, not wavering on the outside. But inside your heart breaks, you don't know what to do or where to turn. Boldness must arise, strength not your own. You must rely on Him and not yourself. A woman unlike any other, a life so amazing. You are astounding, you are the figure of all a woman should be. He turns to you and smiles, you take his hand. Today is a new day, today you will cherish the few moments when you see him. Those moments when you see a glimpse of the past. Today you are stronger. Goodbye I say, yet I wish you weren't going alone. Although alone you won't be, for He shall be by your side.